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Well, my presence in my own blog is a bit like 'now I am here and now I am not'. Somehow, saying I was so busy with life and was unable to blog sounds like a really pathetic excuse. Truth is, I was just not itching to write. But lately, it's been bugging me. I want to write, there seems to be so many stories crowding my head.

Actually, two days ago I was unable to sleep. Amidst my serious attempt of falling asleep, I was thinking about kids who are not privileged enough to sleep in their own beds. Well, unknown to many of us, there are kids out there roaming our streets. No shelter from rain or any other danger. The issue is that nothing is being done to keep these kids safe because most of them do not have any identity. Thus, they do not fall under any constituency. majority of them are refugees. These kids are stranded when their parents (illegal immigrants) are caught and deported to their respective countries. Very little is being done to address this issue. Of course there are organisations who do as much as they can like Nur Salam but they cannot save all the children. Sadly, many of them waste away in the web of drug abuse, child prostitution and trafficking; such a vicious cycle.

We are all so cheery with the feeling of Christmas but lets not forget that the real joy of Christmas is in giving to the needy. So, think about it...what will your share be?

Pain

I have always been the kind of girl who say it as it is. I do not really give it a thought as to how whatever I say would mean to the other person. I am not mean, but I am quick to point out when people cross their line. I voluntarily choose to be direct as opposed to being a hypocrite.

This has made everyone believe that I am very open about my feeling. That is far from the truth. I am one of those who carry my loved ones secrets, weaknesses and pain they inflict inside. I can never find words to express my pain or disappointments. I may pick fight on petty things but when it comes to those serious issue, I coil up in fear. I do not want to lose those I hold close to my heart. It is bad enough that I don't trust easily.

As years went by, I became good at putting on a "I don't care" look. I am good at pretending that I'm okay. It keeps me sane. Again now, those fears are back. They are hurting me, especially those closest to me. How can I ever tell you...to let me go? I want to sleep a good night's sleep without worrying. I want to believe in life's magic; those special moments.

Wit has a major sex appeal

Last Wednesday, I was in Mid Valley with one of my best friends, Sree. For the first time, we caught two movies back to back. I think I am never going to go to the cinema for one movie ... ever. Greed has got to be my sin. We were so unsure of what to watch, there was so many options. Avatar, Sherlock Holmes, Imaginarium, Paranormal Activities ....3 idiots (i'll stop right here). Finally after brainstorming for a while, we decided on Avatar and Sherlock Holmes. Thank God for that!!!!

Sherlock Holmes was reeking with wit. I loved both Robert Downey Jr and Jude Law. I am in a major love mode with Robert Downey Jr. He looked so carelessly handsome (I am having palpitation thinking about him) and was so witty. I could live watching that show. What's is so appealing about men like this...and why can we not have real men who are fabulously witty and intelligent. Now, getting back to the movie, I think Guy Ritchie did a wonderful job with Sherlock Holmes. It could probably get into my Top 5 movies of all time. For those who have not watched it, it is worth every penny. The movie probably has a "satisfaction guaranteed" seal to it.

As for Avatar, a must watch movie as well. The graphics were crazy. The movie had very strong social sentiments. There was this particular part where the humans were destroying the aborigines homes and were waging a war. It was heart breaking. I thought of all the real wars of today. That moment totally hit a chord with me...war is wrong. Those affected with the war now... we owe them. Many are carrying the burden of crime on humanity. Go watch the movie, you will have a better appreciation to everything that's happening around you.

Planner

One of my new year resolution for the past few years has been to get organised. I really wanted the power that comes from having a schedule. Being able to plan each day would absolutely allow me to get things done. It is said that if you write the things down, well you obviously would not forget and that would get you going (something about being more committed to your plan...). Ignoring the part about religiously following it, there was always another problem that I encountered. Buying a planner. I know that it sounds absolutely ridiculous but I have not managed to find any planner that suits whatever I had in mind.

Most planner would have monthly schedule chart, then dated areas to jot down tasks/appointments and some blank pages for notes. Alternatively, I have also purchased a single line planner with no guidance whatsoever. I somehow alway end up being somehow dissatisfied with my whichever planner that I buy. I would probably use it for a while then....the planner does a vanishing act.

This might prompt many to remind me that..."the rest of the world uses this type of planner"!!!

However, this time around...I decided to create my own planner. It really was an exciting experience. I could absolutely incorporate all that is me and have the free hand to do all I want. I now have a section that deals with my daily plans, my finance and my weight progress. Before,I never really could fit in everything I want in an off-the-shelf planner. Moreover, I also managed to put in my favorite quotations and all.

I am really....really happy with my effort. It really paid off cause I am now excited in leading a life that has a direction. It's a good start...I'd say!!!

below is a page from my planner:

Happier in 2010

"Very little is needed to make a happy life; it is all within yourself, in your way of thinking." ~ Marcus Aurelius Antoninus

1. Be your own BFF (best friend forever). Enjoy your own company. Embrace everything about you! Without a doubt, it's the most important step towards being a happy person.

2. Smile, giggle, snicker, or chuckle! Smiling releases serotonin in the brain, which instantaneously gives your mood a lift.

3. Dream big in every area of life. Set your life in motion and manifest your heart's desire.

4. Shut the doors and the windows tight! And then put on your favorite song and sing out loud. Let it rip!

5. Cook a healthy, delicious meal. Serve it up pretty and savor the flavor, one bite at a time.

6. Expect a miracle. Believe that something wonderful will happen for you today. The universe is waiting to shower happy blessings on you.

7. Meditate, pray and chant. Research shows that people who are spiritual tend to be happier and healthier than those who are not.

8. Pull up your best pair of warm socks. Wiggle your toes and enjoy a cozy kind of bliss.

9. Sleep baby sleep. Seven or eight hours each night should increase your energy and decrease your moodiness.

10. Count your blessings daily. Gratitude, the emotion of thankfulness, is one of the key ingredients for living a happy life. Make gratitude a habit and happiness will be yours.

11. Wake up early! Start the day off on a happy foot, with a happy thought. The morning hours are full of spiritual energy and prana (life force).

12. Let the sun shine in. 20 minutes of sunlight per day improves mood and wards of Seasonal Affection Disorder (SAD)..

14. Say "Good Job!" Give yourself permission to pat yourself on the back. Recognize your accomplishments and positive qualities.

15. Happiness is contagious! Surround yourself with happy, positive people who share your values, your goals and dreams

My Lack of Life

College starts tomorrow. I am least enthusiastic about it...especially the reality of facing Corporate Reporting. The thought of it makes my toes curl and chills my blood. I am so not looking forward to this paper. But, I should by right throw away this negativity and look at the bright side of it (........reeeeallly cannot think of anything). Well, no matter what I still have to get through the paper and my tutor's absolutely dry humor (unable to determine which is more dreadful).

I am also rather disappointed in my lack of initiative to make proper plan and watch avatar, sherlock holmes, kurbaan and 3 idiots. I seriously need to get a life (i am the nerd minus the glasses). I so promise my self that I am going to watch all these movies by next Wednesday even if it kills me!!! Well, I am off to make preparation for tomorrow

New Start

I am going to give another shot at maintaining my blog. I have so many things to write about yet can never find the discipline to sit and type it out. This time around, i intend to make a serious effort to write more regularly.

Well, happy new year!!!! I am now reaching 21...it seems like I just finished high school. It was really special to celebrate the new year with all of them during the eve. We all seemed older, living in many corners of the world yet are still connected over memories crafted in high school. Thanks guys for such amazing night!!!!