I finally got my CAT (Advanced Level) results last Monday. Although my marks were in the 80's or upper 70's, I still feel very dissatified with my overall performance for the last four papers. My utmost disappointment was for my Taxation which I hope to score around 90+. The result ended up being merely 84. I felt like the time I put in did not pay off. But thank God, I managed to maintain my average mark in the 80's.
Now I can continue to ACCA Part 2 alongside most of my friends. I was really happy that all of us made it without failing any papers. Sadly, Bobo got stuck in Paper 5.
Somehow, I am still not satisfied at all. I should have scored better for all my papers. My friends just hate it when I complain about my results. They tell me to be grateful for what I got. Sadly, I am a little ambitious...I guess. Not really planning change attitude though...
I just hope that this will spur me to do better in my future papers as ACCA may not be that easy.
Friday, August 22, 2008
Friday, August 8, 2008
Do I have the courage?
One of Oprah's episodes prompted me to write about forgiveness. It was about people who confronted the killers of their loved ones in order to get some sort of closure, they have lost their father, mother and family members. All of them shared a common thought that they had to forgive in order to move on. I personally envy their strength to be able to face their darkest fear and bring their life back to perspective. In my eyes, they are courageous.
All this made me think about my life. How forgiving am I?
There were many who have said hurtful things about me and my family. Some have gone a step further to act in very hurtful manner. Have I forgiven them? I might have but I have not forgotten their evil deeds. Will I hurt them back if I am given an option? I probably will and I am not even going to try pretending to be a saint. I sometimes recall these bad memories and end up getting really upset and angry. I really want them to rot in some deep hole.
The anger and hatred should have been gratifying. Ironically, it makes me feel downright worthless. It hurts me to hate these hypocrites. Every time I want to curse them to eternal doom (literally), I back off simply because it does not feel right. As to whether I have forgiven them, I have not, not yet. They will be part of garbage which I will carry till I find the courage to let go, forgive and move on.
All this made me think about my life. How forgiving am I?
There were many who have said hurtful things about me and my family. Some have gone a step further to act in very hurtful manner. Have I forgiven them? I might have but I have not forgotten their evil deeds. Will I hurt them back if I am given an option? I probably will and I am not even going to try pretending to be a saint. I sometimes recall these bad memories and end up getting really upset and angry. I really want them to rot in some deep hole.
The anger and hatred should have been gratifying. Ironically, it makes me feel downright worthless. It hurts me to hate these hypocrites. Every time I want to curse them to eternal doom (literally), I back off simply because it does not feel right. As to whether I have forgiven them, I have not, not yet. They will be part of garbage which I will carry till I find the courage to let go, forgive and move on.
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