Tuesday, September 9, 2008

My Own Pride

I have been intending to update my blog about the past few weeks. I had a lot of things to write about. Dad's birthday, certain events and my college life. Now, I do not even want to think about anything. I screwed up big time!!

My lecturer gave us a three hour exam paper to try at home. It was on Sunday after a six hours class and the deadline was the next day. I reached home so late and was practically dead tired. So I went to bed. The next day, I started doing the paper when my friend called. We decided to meet up in college. Let's just say we discussed the exam paper.

When my lecturer got to know about it, he cancelled the whole test series for the whole class because of four of us. Throughout the whole class none of us could focus on the lesson. We were just too guilty. He was right when he said we were dishonest and full of ego. We did not want to hand-in a paper which showed our weaknesses. Personally, I did not want to disappoint with a very badly done paper. The whole class suffered because of us. I guess he hit the right notes when he said, 'Will you be able to live with yourself if you fail or if others fail because of you?'

The saddest part was probably that he was an amazing teacher. He supported us all this while. Yesterday, he said we are no more his students. We have just lost a dedicated teacher, an amazing mentor and a gem of a man.


Lee said...

Hi Jamuuna, not to worry over it....just continue on, you'll be fine.
I was the opposite...my mom would get letters from teachers, "you son has no future", "studies not on his mind", "seems to have other things on his brain", and so on, ha ha....

I never ever scored more than 60% in maths, ha ha. And exam results always just over the border....
but somehow I did pull thru, ha ha.

You stay easy and keep well, Lee.

Jamuuna said...

Thanks for the advice uncle Lee. I guess your teachers never saw potentials. Lol

Jeeves said...

Jammy!poor girl..i'm so sorry!but ur lecturer is kinda overreacting though..its not like u cheated on the real exam.yes, u were dishonest but i think he shouldnt hv said stuff like ur no more my students and bla bla.aih.nvm dun worry k..we noe you have integrity.Think of it this way.Jason Mraz said 'I reckon it’s again my turn to win some or learn some.' i guess its time for u to learn some.and learning is always good.at least you'll never do it again.